Desperate
Joa... eh .__.
I hope there are no big mistakes OoO If this is the case... I'm soooooorry x__x I only wrote my thoughts down... I guess, at this time, it is really hard to think about the right tense xD
So... to this text... it's only that what i thougt a few minutes ago and... now... I try to "tell" someone how i'm feeling and what i'm thinking, 'cause... i'm a person, who can't talk with someone about this QoQ
Desperate
I'm desperated, really desperated
and it is my fault, your fault... no, our fault.
It was new for both of us.
A new section in your and also in my life.
We was certain, that nothing of earth can burst the red wire, which is connecting us.
Neither you or me had imagined, that this will happen.
Why should we?
Everything was perfect... really everthing. Friends of us envyd our friendship and now, look what happened!
It is my fault? 'Cause I'm jealous , that there is suddenly a person in your life, which is more important for you, than me?
Or it is your faul, because you don't open your mouth and talk to me? Your best friend. Why did you not open your mouth and talked to me?! Said me, that there is someone in your life; a person who you love. Why didn't you you say, that the both of you were in a relationship? Did you really think it is the right time for a guessing game? Why?! I don't understand it... understand you!
I guess it is not only your or my fault. Perhaps it is our fault. Both of us never opened the mouth. I never told you how I feel, beside I felt illy, and you also never did this. Maybe that's reason, why we can't talk about our feelings. We nerer learned it.
I don't know what will happen in future, but truly, deep inside me, is a little of hope, that someday both of us can look back to past; regret nothing... together.
But now, I'm desperated...
I feel lonely...
What should I do?
